promos are ALMOST over!!! YAYNESS! i've completed all my h2 subjects paper! so im only left with chem mcq on wed (which means no school on mon, tue, thur and fri. xD) and after which im gonna go hang out with the 0718 clique! :D

the promos period was definitely a tiring period. it was hell, torture, and everything. energy draining and physically draining, it was. there were times i felt so sick, so irritated, so exasperated, i didnt feel like studying anymore. during the last lap, when it was about 5 more days to promos, i really felt like giving up. it was so energy draining, i really wanted to give up. but i knew i couldn't because it knew it was the very last lap. what i could do was to encourage myself by self-talk before and during the studying process. and what im very proud of is that, i didnt give up, though there were times this thought occured to me.

and its not easy surviving through this period. surviving through the paper is one thing. surviving through the entire long and tiring process of the preparation of the promos is another. actually, it is actually more energy draining than the paper itself. cos when doing the paper, time flies. usually, in lectures, 1 hour is hell. during an exam, 1 hour passes by in the blink of an eye. its not easy surviving through the studying period. with huiyi and truddy enjoying themselves at cambodia, i wish i could be enjoying somewhere too. zirong was in indonesia, i wish i could go on a holiday too. ben was having his school holiday, choochi was free and more free. i couldnt go out when people asked me to. i had to reject them, reject movies and outings which i love. but of course, there was suen and cris, suffering geog with me! and also priscilla! haha! although she suan me that her promos end earlier than mine and keep telling me i shd have gone to MI!

from miss hazel's email:
"I wish to say that all of you have put up a great fight. I felt that you were fighting really hard. Nevermind if for the past weeks, some of you didn't work hard but today is the final showdown, and I'm proud that you actually tried.

Thank you for running the race with me. And thank you for giving your race a good finish. At the end of the day, you ran. you gave it your all. you tried. That's what's most important to me.

So nevermind about not finishing the paper, nevermind about not doing as well as you wanted to be. Things do not always go in our way but we need to learn to take it in stride and to look at things positively. Instead, you should pat yourselves on the back and pride yourself at having a greater sense of ownership, a greater sense of confidence, ability in Economics, more than the other students. And for fighting real hard. =)"

im proud to say that, yes, i have put up a great fight. be it for econs, maths, chem, or even geog. during the econs paper, my hand could break anytime, it was losing control such that i wrote the word "imperfect" wrongly thrice in a row. i forgot to draw diagrams, i forgot to include certain points in my evaluation. but one thing for sure is, i fought real hard. i fought on, although my hand hurt like mad. when i couldnt recall the points, i came up with new points. yes, i ran, i gave it my all, i tried, i did my best, i gained a greater sense of confidence and ability. i'm no longer a student who gives slip-shod and attitude work such as a half page essay outline.

at the end of the day, what spurred me on was actually someone special (this is really stupid lah.. but its really the reason.) well, not only that person, but also i thought of what mdm nur laila said, what mdm teoh said, and the things i told them, promising them i'll work hard. miss hazel was another special person, she was always there for us, running the race with us, and giving us her best. i was determined not to disappoint them, and to make them proud of me. and i was EVEN MORE DETERMINED TO PASS MY MATHS, SO MR TOH WOULD NOT HAVE THE CHANCE TO TELL ME OFF!

if i do not pass any of my promo papers, or if i do not pass any subjects overall and get retained, i would be lying if i say i would not be sad. in fact, i think i would cry my heart out, because i would not be able to promote with that special someone. but i will realise that i did my best, fought a good fight, and will have no regrets or whatsoever.

promos have made me a stronger person, in terms of physically and mentally, a more confident person, and now, i also strongly believe that winning isn't everything; it is really the process that matters.

well, i would slack for these few days and catch up on my sleep.. i cabbed to school FOUR TIMES this week! and you know what! now my cab fare to school is like average $12 to $13, which is about thrice the amount i spend on taking a cab to queenstown! ugh. and of course im not gonna slacken and work hard for chem mcq, to pull my marks up. if i manage to secure a pass in chem, that would be really God's blessings man!

and oh, WEARING RED SOCKS DURING AN EXAM WORKS!!! hahahaha. i wore red socks during maths exam and it gave me luck! well, i feel that i did much better for promos than mid years. the day after maths was chem. i only had one red socks and i washed it.. so i decided semi-red may help too. so i wore pink. but damn it, i screwed chem! so i wore red socks again on the day of the econs paper, and there was luck for me! managed to understand the question and apply what i've learnt into the context, managed to rush through despite the pain i was experiencing, managed to finish all 4 essay questions! so i went home and washed my red socks and quickly blow dried it to wear it today. well, there was some luck for chinese.. cos the compre was rather easy to comprehend. uh, but for geog, i cant say that it went well. but it definitely was better than what i expected. what i expected was: i would forget everything during the exam and have nothing to write and will end up sleeping. (okay, some negative thoughts and lack of confidence here.. but this is regarding GEOG!!!) but i managed to answer most of the questions.. well i hope i answered them correctly and hope i wont fail that badly!
so people, red socks do help in exams! i dont know if its pure coincidence, or.. if red socks really brings luck to you in exams?

now let's look forward to PW after promos. its gonna be oh so fun! whoo! im so excited yeah.